So Much

I have had a million things to blog about over the past month but I haven't been in the right head space to put my thoughts into a blog. It's been stressful...and then boring....and then frustrating....repeat. I guess I should've powered through and blogged because now I can't remember half of what I wanted to blog about. So let me start from my last blog and go from there.

Our property- A couple years ago we bought 10 acres of land in hopes of building our dream home there. But, last Summer, we decided that that was not what we wanted to do (especially with the cost of lumber going up!). So we put it on the market and had a full asking price offer within 48 hours. We were elated! Well, long story short the buyer kept dragging things out and even paid a few months of the land payments in order to prolong things. In February, the month we were finally going to close on the land, the buyer ghosted our agent and the deal fell through. We put the land on the market, and within a couple weeks, we were under contract again with another full asking price offer. We moved forward with everything and even had a closing date/time scheduled. But the day before closing we found out that the lenders dropped the ball in getting legal information out in a timely manner so we had to push the closing back 2 days. Frustrating but not the end of the world. Until it came to the new day of the closing and the buyers decided to walk from the deal. I have lost sleep over it and still can't figure out how they can legally do that. But it is what it is.

As we were dealing with that drama, I was ending the school year with one of my top favorite classes. Before the school year had begun, I was worried about the group of students and was not really looking forward to the year with them. But, I'm so thankful that I had nothing to dread! I loved this group of students something fierce! I told them repeatedly that I would loop up with them every year through junior high if I could. I only had one persistent issue and it wasn't even with a student. These kids were, hands down, top notch students. So saying goodbye to them was bittersweet. Bitter because I can't easily keep track of them after they leave elementary school, but sweet because I'm glad I got to leave LVE with such great memories of this past year.

Baseball, too, has been bittersweet. It was a rough season, not at all the way I envisioned after spending thousands of dollars for E to play for a certain organization. But the last tournament of the year we got the sweet taste of victory not once but twice. A coach that we all love and adore stepped in for our "head" coach and he brought out the best in the boys and the team. You would've thought we won the World series with how we were all acting like fools when the team got their first win! My regret is that this particular coach hadn't coached our team the entire season. If he had, I think we would've had a different outcome. There are "winning" coaches and "teaching" coaches. He is definitely a "teaching" coach, which would have led to more wins, in my opinion, if he had been with us from the beginning.

On Memorial Day, P and I had the honor of doing a modified Murph Challenge that my gym was hosting. We had trained for it together for about a month and we loved taking part in it. We pushed ourselves and tried to honor fallen soldiers who paid the ultimate price for our freedom. It was a touching way to celebrate Memorial Day this year.

The last week of the school year we put our house on the market. We had been advised to get it listed the first of May but we weren't able to make that happen. We were told by several people that we'd have multiple offers within the first few days of listing it. We had one. A contingent one that we did not accept. For 3 weeks we have had 1-2 showings a day with a dose of false hope thrown in. False hope as in we'd get feedback, stating that the people "maybe" are interested in making an offer or potential buyers asking our agent a ton of questions only to make an offer on another house. It's interesting to me that people notice things the first time, looking at our house, that I haven't noticed in the 5+ years we've lived here. I've about killed myself, trying to "fix' everything that strangers have noticed. Finally, I told Rob last week, that I just can't do anymore. It's too much and people will just have to like it the way it is or find a different house. (I'll admit that I "fixed" more stuff yesterday but today I have left well enough alone.)

While we've been dealing with our stuff here, we're slowly transitioning our life to the next chapter. We are under contract with a house and the current owners have been more than helpful with giving us leeway with closing on it. It's a house that needs updating so we're excited to get in there and do some things to make it ours! I'm making the most of my last week at my gym here. That is going to be one thing that I REALLY miss! There are some good gyms around here, but FBBC was the perfect fit for me and my fitness goals. I have thrived there and I doubt I'll ever find another gym quite like it. E tried out for 2 different baseball teams that had reached out to us. After the tryouts we talked to him about the teams and coaches. We talked about it and prayed about it and last night we decided to go with the team that we think best fits him/our family. He is beyond excited and I think this will be a great upcoming season for him. P is super excited about the move, especially now that he knows they have a bass team at this new school. Middle school was rough for him here so he is looking forward to a change.

Speaking of P, he's at church camp this week. It has made me realize I don't think I'll thrive as an "empty nester". Each day Rob and I ask each other, "Has he called you?" Last year he called every night and that's when he didn't have his phone with him. So, knowing he has his phone and he's choosing not to call makes me think he's having a blast. That doesn't mean I'm not counting down until Friday, when I get to see him and hug him, though. P being gone has made for a rather boring week. E spends most of the day down at his best friend's house. So I do chores and read but then I get bored. E assured us last night that I won't have to worry about being an empty nester. He said, "Even when I grow up and buy a house I'll still come spend the night at your house every night because I'll be scared." If only....

To top it off, Rob and I celebrated our 14th anniversary yesterday. We decided that we weren't going to do anything big this year so we just enjoyed a nice dinner out....with E. As I was falling asleep last night, I thanked God for how far He's brought our marriage. The first several years of it were rough. Like, we were going to get divorced rough. But we've powered through, with God's help, and we are stronger than ever. I couldn't imagine going through the stress of the past couple months with how things were in our marriage 10 years ago. But now I can't imaging going through it with anyone else. Rob has truly become my best friend, my biggest cheerleader, my confidant and so much more. I am so thankful that we made it through a rough few years to get where we are today.

Phew, I guess that about sums it up. It's a lot but I wanted to catch up with the blog. Until next time...