Being Cynical

I had a beautiful 2 1/2 hour drive this afternoon that got me thinking. For those of you that know me well know I analyze EVERYTHING and overthink the smallest things. So it's no surprise that I did that during the drive home. The sad part is that instead of enjoying the beautiful scenery I became cynical. Before I give away what I'm being cynical about let me say that my friends mean the world to me. I get way more protective of them than myself just because.....well, for more reasons than I want to write about. That being said, I'm being cynical about my friends. Two of my friends are in fairly new relationships. I truly, with all my heart, want both of them to work out so my wonderful friends can be married to great guys. However, one of my friends texted me today (which got the whirlwind thoughts brewing) that it looks like she and the guy she's dating are about to end things. Then my other friend is in a similar situation to one I was in right before I met Rob. I REALLY hope hers has a different outcome so she doesn't get hurt! I'm also being cynical about friends dropping off the face of the Earth. I will be the first to admit that I'm not the best with corresponding these days, except via Cyberspace. But, I've called, emailed and texted a friend that never responded. I even left a message telling her I was sorry if I had done anything to upset her. I called another other friend after she had been in a horrible accident last week. I have yet to hear back from her. This isn't uncommon for her because she tells me that she can't find the peace and quiet to talk on the phone anymore with 2 kids but a return phone call would be nice. I have a lot of opinions on her not calling but I will keep them to myself (I'm learning to keep me mouth quiet). So, while I took in the beautiful Sierras that surrounded me, I got lost in thought and prayer. I hope that everything works out so all of us can be one big happy family! :)